Hide and seek may have been fun back in the day, but I'm not really getting the same excitement out of these days. My legs are too long to fit under the bed. My laugh is too loud to keep quiet for that long and I am too tall to fold myself up into a plastic tub or box. It's just no fun anymore. No matter where I try to hide someone will still be able to see me, but here I lay underneath the bed with my feet sticking out from under it...hiding. From who? I'm the only one playing...
Just as with Adam and Eve, sin sends us into hiding, running for the dark. The more we allow it to permeate our lives, the deeper into the dark we try to hide. The more we try to forget that we can still be seen.
I've been playing this game of hide and seek with God for the last three weeks or so (hence the reason I haven't blogged in so long). I've had no inspiration. I've allowed road blocks to send me running to the dark. It's amazing how fast I've slipped after cutting the source of communication, His Word, out of my daily life. I'm too tired, I'm working too much, I have deadlines to meet, etc have been a few of the lies that I've welcomed into my heart. I feel like Paul in Romans 7: 15-19, "For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing."
Although it seems like Paul is hung up on his inability to do what he knows is right, he goes on to tell us of the grace and mercy offered through Jesus Christ. I have no reason to hide in the dark. God promises in Jeremiah 29:13, "You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart." I've been playing the game all wrong. I need to switch it up a bit. I'll be 'it'. I'll be the seeker. I'm guaranteed the win when I play by His rules.
"Understand this, You are passionately loved by the God of the universe. You are passionately hated by his Enemy." Captivating by John & Stasi Eldredge"
